DEPRESSION CAN BE A SILENT KILLER!!!
As Mia sat in her living room, the afternoon rays lighting up her whole room. Unfortunately the rays though reached her face couldn’t bring the smile onto her face. Though she loved the warm rays of the sun on her face and she would welcome it with happiness today it was lost. She sat with eyes gazing out of the window on to the tree tops and eyes moved way into the space of blankness. The lips drooped down with sadness.
All she asked herself, what have I done to myself. I have given my time to everyone who needs it, be it friends, family and any acquaintances. I was always there to help them and a shoulder they could rely on. Somewhere down the line has she been so caught up in the process of helping that her own loved ones and friends have moved away from her. She was feeling extremely low as she kept asking her self this question.
She had her eyes brimmed as the pain and hurt spilled out as tears and she looked into blankness and her favorite Frank Sinatra played in the background. Her neatly manicured nails in her lap were knotted up in pain. The tears kept rolling down like the flood gates opened and created a pool into her palms…
She sat with her feet curled in and all that she thought was:-
>was I wrong?
>have I shut all doors
>am I forgotten by one and all
>did I hurt anyone without my knowledge
>what am I to do should I reach out
As countless painful thoughts kept flowing in her mind and the music playing in the back ground helped her mind to keep shifting from one memory to another and her eyes were lost in whirlpool of emotions and that was creating havoc in her space. No one home her children grown up having their own life and work. Spouse busy with his work, she being a homemaker sat at home all alone looking out of the window the breeze was relaxing her even in the state she has been in.
She closed her eyes, and decided to relax on her couch. Her mind darted from her family, her siblings not one of them have been in touch with or made an effort to call. Did it pain yes ofcourse it has. Her friends no one even call now and she is hesitant to take the phone and call thinking they may not wish to talk to her. She felt silly with that thought but she believed in it.
Mia’s heart was wrenching with pain that she just didn’t know what to do, she is in no mood to go to her kitchen her pride and try to make some delicious and scrumptious chocolate cake and cookies that she planned on making for the evening tea. She just wanted this time to think and see what to do..
SHE FELT LONELY
UNLOVED
UNWANTED
Seeing herself like this really annoyed her, she was in no mood to call and try to vent or seek help. Was Mia feeling weak and helpless
Yes
Was she scared to reach out for help
Yes
Do you think Mia should have actually taken the phone and called one of her friends or family??
Yes / maybe
Well how many of them would have actually listened to Mia or even heard her story. How many would have actually left everything they are doing and come rushing to be with her and tell her all is well?? This is something to ponder on. It’s easy to sit and talk or comment on something someone is going through, being oblivious to the fact of how deep the pain or discomfort is.
Mia brought out her journal took out the pen gifted for her 65th birthday by her children. She started to write her thoughts, emotions and feelings and also the hope and wish that she would be thought of by someone somewhere. As she allowed her thoughts to flow in to her book, tears were just rolling down her eyes like there is no tomorrow. Life became really sad for her as put her pen down and stood up ironing the crease of her dress with her palms, she looked towards the mirror and saw a reflection of a wrinkled sad face look back at her.
Was she is unhappy?
No she had family, friends, a life to be envied and wished for.
Then what’s wrong?
Mia is in deep depression and no one is even aware of it as she is moving about her life in which everything looks perfect. She herself is unaware that she is this deep state of depression.
Mia stood up headed to her garden her space of her happiness and tranquility. Now I ask you!
Do you feel Mia is right??
Should she be more open and communicative
You feel it’s okay she has handled herself well and not tried anything drastic so far and that’s good.
We society make people and break people, we label people and gossip about people. We build relationships and destroy relationships. Our thoughts become our act in every way. Life is so unpredictable and we really don’t know if Mia could be stopped from taking a bad step. But we can change ourselves and our thoughts. We can be more positive and communicative. If someone hasn’t called or communicated in a while, it’s worth taking the phone and giving them a call and saying hey how are you??
Depression is a silent killer, we may never know when and who is in it. At times we may just kind of keep slipping into it and just not be aware about it. We need to be open and cautious and also be aware of our loved ones. When you see them slowly cutting off not discussing then they maybe moving aloof it’s time to start looking. Allow yourself to be sensitive towards their thoughts and acts.
Don’t be presumptuous that a person is busy, or they don’t answer your call. Give it a try take time out to reach out. A person in depression maybe fear full to accept it or talk about it. We can never know. Keeping old memories we can have resistance to reach out, overcoming that and making a call, you never know you may have saved a life.
Life if uncertain especially for those in depression as they are spiraling downwards. One needs to be cautious and try to be watchful of these. At times even by us bring watchful and keeping a watchful eye they can still move towards taking drastic measures. As a bystander we can only move forward to help. Keeping these in mind, go through your list of contacts make it a habit to check on your friends, acquaintances and family.
Depression is not be feared but faced with courage and acknowledged. Seek help don’t fear what people have to say.
Never allow anything to reach you and push you to the state of no return. Though it feels the end there will always be a beginning wait for it.
Life is not be suffered right endured it’s meant to be enjoyed and celebrated.
Reach out to Samskara Healing if you have an issue or trouble to let go for guidance, support or a session.
🌺Palash 🌺
Spiritual Healer @samskarahealing
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